It’s really strange to self-define….I’m used to becoming what is needed of me, to rising to the external challenge/demand placed on me at any one time. Becoming something from the inside is different, and I’m not entirely convinced possible.
I’m not sure of my habit of “clearing the decks”…my needing to have everything straight to let my own path take over. Whether that is procrastination and avoiding the self/growing bit.
Waiting for balance.
Missing some relationships, but glad to be clear for a while, to not be defined by them.