Something I just read, lead me to realise why I have so many rules and rights and shoulds and ‘ought to’s in my head….how it’s not automatic learnt repeating of what I have seen, but my choice to keep myself safe…the sentence ‘rules keep me safe’ popped into my head, and when I looked closer it turned into a very young me saying “having the rules is like having my mum around”.

There’s something very gentle and reassuring and freeing about this little realisation. A tiny bit sad too as it comes with the sensation of missing my mum and being frightened, ooh it feels like a first day at school! How strange and lovely.

So freeing.